Claire and I broke up after a year and some months. It was an amiable break-up but it still hurts like hell, like super-Hell if such a place wasn't just in my chest but actually a place where the really REALLY bad people went.

This gave me the nervous energy to get into a intense work-out regime which I started today, mainly because it feels self-destructive but doesn't actually destroy anything. Hopefully that will reap dividends.

I have a lot of really good friends who have offered everything from sympathy to a place where I can stay for a while. Its good to know that the more things change, I can always count on each and every one of you for exactly what I need. =)

and now, the song I'm listening to on repeat!


I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love you'd die to heal
The hope that starts the broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

Angels on the sideline,
Puzzled and amused.
Why did Father give these humans free will?
Now they're all confused.

Don't these talking monkeys know that
Eden has enough to go around?
Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys,
Where there's one you're bound to divide it.
Right in two.

Angels on the sideline,
Baffled and confused.
Father blessed them all with reason.
And this is what they choose.
And this is what they choose...

Monkey killing monkey killing monkey
Over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys give them thumbs,
They forge a blade,
And where there's one
they're bound to divide it,
Right in two.
Right in two.

Monkey killing monkey killing monkey.
Over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys give them thumbs.
They make a club.
And beat their brother, down.
How they survive so misguided is a mystery.

I seem to recognize your face...
Haunting, familiar, yet I can seem to place it.
Can not find the candle of thought to light your name.
Lifetimes are catching up with me.
All these changes taking place
I wish I'd seen the place
but no one's ever taking me.

Normally, I wouldn't put this behind a cut, because if you're subscribed to me, you know what you're getting yourself into. This song, though, is both long and worth it; so the cut isn't for you, but for me to separate between those who'd investigate magic and those who'd ignore it.

I'm going to get a parking ticket today for parking too long while I took a mid-term. I know it.

IU was robbed. ROBBED. Dual-possession is always ruled in the favor of the Offense. ALWAYS. It's in the DAMN RULEBOOK!

This Weekend in Football...

Nothing warms my heart more than watching the mighty fall. In this case, it is USC laying an egg against un-ranked Washington. Say sayoonara to the Top 10, don't let it trip you on the way out, losers.

Speaking of losers, it's too bad that Michigan St. lost to ND as I would have loved to have seen Notre Dame's hope leak out their eyeballs, but it turns out Michigan State just doesn't have it in them to beat anyone, it seems.

In Big Ten news, happy to see the winners are winning again: Ohio St, Michigan, and Penn St. all taking games they should have won no question. But next week divisional play begins which brings us to IU.

Indiana University is one of 27 teams in the NCAA that remains unbeaten. For this one week, we student body can actually experience the joy of pretending we're decent...until Michigan dashes those hopes on the rocks of the Big House. Seriously, I predict a shalaking the likes of which has been banned by the Geneva Convention as a warcrime. The last time IU beat Michigan in Ann Arbor was 1967 when IU went to the Rose Bowl. Michigan is up in this series 30 games to 1.

Last but not least, I'd like to leave Collegiate play with this thought:

His name isn't Jahvid Pretty-Good or Jahvid Nice or even Jahvid Fast. His name is Jahvid Best.

And now for Professional Hand-Egg.

I think someone in the NY Giants administration has made a deal with Higher or Lower powers. Seriously, I have never seen a football program as blessed by crazy plays as these guys. Someone get Eli Manning a lottery ticket!

Also in New York, the Jets beat the Patriots. The only thing that could have made that game any better was if a D-Lineman had shattered Brady's knee so badly it could never be operated on for fear of his knee leaking out. Actually, on second thought, leave him in. He sucks. Better his reputation ruined for ever than have him injured and martyred.

Bears against the Steelers. Watched this game once again with moonartemis76 . I like the Bears...so long as they aren't letting their emotions run wild. It has been explained to me that the Bears are an emotional team, but honestly, you're getting paid millions of United States legal tender to NOT commit pre-snap penalties and unsportmanlike conduct fouls. Try to pretend you're professionals here.

But the Steelers lost and that makes me happy so I will overlook this...this week.

Too tired and busy to do a This Weekend in Football, perhaps I will do one tomorrow.

Also, playing Champions Online and enjoying it much more than City of Heroes.

I should be in bed or at least studying for two quizzes tomorrow but first...

This Weekend in Football...

IU sucks. If we struggle against schools for the Blind and Deaf, how are we going to perform against the likes of Penn State, Michigan, and Ohio State? GARBAGE! Did I mention Penn State?

Speaking of Ohio State, I honestly thought they were going to beat USC with a stunning display of Defense. Then on the last drive of a close game, the Defense lays an egg. Thanks, Ohio State, for furthering the thinking that the Big Ten sucks. Assholes.

Also, fuck USC.

Fortunately, Michigan dashed any hopes of Notre Dame going 12-0 (as some cults have been eluding to) and played a solid game of football.

Houston beat Oklahoma State? Really? Ha! Next time prepare for the Spread, losers!

Elsewhere, in Professional Ball...

Won my FFL game with some nip-tuck craziness with the Packers v. Bears being the decider. Sadly, I needed the Packers to win with a passing TD and that is exactly what happened. Just sucks that I watched it at the house of moonartemis76

Colts win another close one. Must be the regular season again.